‘Thallo Camp was amazing.

It was positive and refreshing. This were kind of going downhill for me (with moving and such) so that was a really good experience. I love all those people.

Now that I’m home I’ve got everything in front of me again. By everything I mean the pressing questions:

Should I move? Should I stay? Where to move? Where to work? What to do?!?!?

I don’t know. Austin kind of fell through, mostly just with the housing is situation. But that lead me to think maybe Austin wasn’t where I was supposed to go. Should I stay in OKC? If I do that where will I work and would I move out? That option scares me the most, I think because I don’t know if I’d ever leave.

Another option is Denver. Josh keeps telling me I should move to Denver. It really is tempting. Everything I hear about it sounds awesome. But I don’t know, I don’t want to follow Jesse around and if he doesn’t want me to I won’t go. I don’t want to upset him by moving in with Josh or getting up there before he does. So I don’t know about that option…

Other than those things I don’t know what else to do… It’s all kind of stressfull.

I thought maybe if I read some of the Bible it’d give me some insight. Maybe if I read 1 Timothy there would be a verse that says to move to Denver or Austin or get a job at a bakery or something direct like that.

But we all know how G-d seems to do things. I read some of Proverbs. It’s a very interesting book, I’m not sure if I like it to be honest. Maybe I like it but I don’t understand it. The thing about Proverbs is it talks about the pursuit and rewards of wisdom but it doesn’t really tell you… it doesn’t really tell you how to be wise. maybe just not directly. Maybe just not specifically to my situation.

But I did read something that gave me a little peace.

My son, give attention to my words; incline your ear to my sayings. Do not let them depart from your sight; keep them in the midst of your heart. For they are life to those who find them and health to all their body.

That verse makes me think…

What if we really sought after wisdom and truth. What if we really believed what we say we believe. What if we really had faith in G-d. I’m not talking about a blind questionless faith but a faith that says “G-d has come through before, I believe He’ll do it again”.

What if our pursuit of truth and wisdom and our love of G-d and truth really was literally health to all our body? I think it’s certianly possible…