Here it is… 3:22 on sunday morning.
I’m rolling around in bed.
I’m scared. I’m scared to move. I’m stressing out.
I’m scared. I’m scared because I can’t experience G-d. I can’t hear Him. I can’t see Him. I can’t feel Him…
When I close my eyes and try to imagine Him He’s sitting in a chair far away… I can’t get to Him.
It’s freaking me out. Why is He out there? Why isn’t He holding me?
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September 17, 2008 at 4:57 pm
captivehope
He’s there. He’s always there even when it seems like He’s not. He’s always doing something in our lives that we might not be aware of, somewhere in the background of our lives. He’s working, He’s there. Be comforted by that.
Read His Word, be faithful with it. Even if you feel like you’re not getting anything or that you’re not worthy, keep reading! You’ll be surprised at the work God has done even when you didn’t realize He was doing something.
Press hard into God, pray and seek solitude as well. He is there.
You’re young yet, this is the time in your life to really find out who you are. It’s so much easier to do it with God. Of course you’ll make mistakes, but now when you’re young seek hard after Him. That way when you’re older you won’t look back and see a mess behind you and God won’t have as much to clean up to get you to where you need to be. I just want to encourage you that NOW is the time. NOW. You’ll be amazed at what God can do and how He can change you. Be encouraged.
September 17, 2008 at 5:41 pm
timothy
Thank you, friend..
do i know you?
September 18, 2008 at 1:35 pm
captivehope
No, you don’t know me. I found your blog linked on another blog I ran across. I felt as though you needed some encouragement, so I responded. I’m going to write your name in my prayer journal so I can remember to be praying for you.
Eph 1:17-19
17 I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. 18 I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, 19 and his incomparably great power for us who believe.